tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45806243592360551172012-02-16T11:09:13.935-08:00Ursula G. Hurthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11973168438758782953noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4580624359236055117.post-12565018726646784942007-04-16T17:42:00.000-07:002007-04-16T17:58:43.629-07:00the trouble i've seen...heh<br />i have a secret. rather, i have many but that is to be discussed later. <br />my best kept secret is this- i want to die. <br />i wake up in the morning and think "oh, no. not again."<br />every day.<br />i don't consider myself suicidal for i do not desire to kill myself, necessarily. nor do i think of how everyone would be sorry, and all that typical stuff. quite the contrary, the main reasons i do not kill myself is because i do not want to be a "suicide case" and i do not want to hurt the people that care for me. i just do not want to live. <br />why?<br />i wish i knew. sure, i've had a pretty tough life, but many have. i do not feel sorry for myself. <br />what is the source of my death wish? <br />i will continue to explore this issue in the future.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4580624359236055117-1256501872664678494?l=supersillyus.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Ursula G. Hurthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11973168438758782953noreply@blogger.com0